What do you do when you know something is going on with someone you love. 

I am very analytical so first I look at what's changed. I also have asked what I can do to help. When it someone who is a fiercly independant as myself I took the persons word that they would call and set up appointments with medical and other help.....and I waited. I waited while anger and resentment over past forgiven and gone things were dredged up. I waited while we together rode the roller coaster of the persons emotions. This person can be very loud and yet childish when in this state (to the point of screaming with their hands over their ears). Or lashing out and hurling accusations of things simply unbelievable to anyone who truly knows me. I do not cheat. Never have never will. I am not petty. I have no resentment towards this person. I just want happiness and a drought of drama. I have through all with this person tried to remind I just want them to get some medical care etc. I want the person to be whole again and not so fractured. I have no other list of "done me wrongs". I wish the other person felt the same but they don't apparently. So I am going forward to the best of my Irish ability.

Bits and Pieces

Just got some interesting unsolicited information from a relative.  It seems my mother, with whom I have had no contact since 1998  has been moved from the home she and at one point my step father owned.Most everything was a loss. To the point said relative said they didn't even try to clean up the garage. So much of my childhood, diplomas, yearbooks, sports memorabilia and things I thought were important and that's why she held on to it all these years. So much to have on my mind as I try to fall asleep.

Starting things off...or restarting

I have always believed we are here for a purpose. Everything happens for a reason. I think most everyone believes it to some extent: albeit Budism, Christianity, whatever. I have also always believed my trials especially the big ones were to teach me something I would use later in my life to help others. I have seen this happen over and over.

I have been wanting to restart this blog but with a new focus. Using my trials and joys as lessons that may at some point help someone else. So as I share my thoughts please keep in mind my path and my desire to help others.